I am just beginning to comprehend the true nature of the awakening. Something inside me stirs whenever I try to make sense of something beyond my understanding. Is it confusion, doubt or fear? As easy as it is to expose falsehoods with hard evidence, the same cannot be said with esoteric knowledge. These abstract concepts, so bizarre yet so elegant, prompt me to peep down one rabbit hole after another in search of answers. I've been in many a rabbit hole in my journey, but I always came out more uncertain of everything. Could it be my prejudices and the remnants of my programming struggling to make sense of it all? I do remember vividly how I became disillusioned with some false teachings that, when I had realized my mistake, I trashed everything I had learnt about it.
Just thinking. But it would be great if you guys could help me shed some light on this. Thanks!
Feral Indeed, self-realization is a stairway to heaven, but the steps are so steep, we can only take one step at a time. Patience is your ally against anxiety. Confusion, doubt, or fear are reactions that we all have to deal with, to one degree or another. Focus , instead, on the underlying reaction to these three, curiosity. In our curiosity we have a certain innocence. It's the "Bliss" in your innocence that breaks and gives way to confusion, doubt, fear and the like, as we discover a very old War on Consciousness. Please remember, dear sibling, the greatest rabbit hole we could ever go down, is in our hearts. Look inside, and you will find. My point, is if we spend more time looking outside, rather than inside, we become imbalanced and then our reactions take precedent over conscious action. The goal here is to foster a balanced psyche through acknowledgement of the energetic pattern of polarities that govern the law of physics, cause and affect. Hope this helps. Unity in Harmony in Love.
Thursday 17 March 2016, 18:00:23
[deleted user] Augustine what a cool post! All i really know is my experience so... With In my experience of awakening I am aware of more and feel more but I understand less and less. Its like my brain wants to understand the experiences Im having but it cant. Its kind of exhausting for it in a way. When I am unsure or uncertain I am open to new information because I accept I dont know. I think that if you are coming out of rabbit holes with uncertainty than that might be because you are truly open to the information that you received and it is leaving you confused which is a really really good thing:):) Cuz you are probably really learning something. Matt Kahn says the entrance fee to Heaven is "Our Understanding"
Thursday 17 March 2016, 21:24:21
Feral Good point T, I wanted to add in a quote by Jiddu Krishnamurti: “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.”
Thursday 17 March 2016, 21:31:40
[deleted user] Thank you Feral for your insight. Indeed, during the initial phases of my awakening, I kept looking elsewhere for answers. I had to know why humans were narcissistic, selfish and uncaring. Somehow, I managed to come to the conclusion that as long as I was true to myself, I didn't need to worry about getting influenced by the lies of the world. I remember this surge of joy, the first time I had felt happy in months! I called up a friend who I had been confiding in when I was still struggling to make sense of everything and told her (it was late) that I would sleep happy. And I meant it! T, I like the way you describe how you handle this kind of knowledge. For me, I try to keep an open mind, but something hinders me from looking any further. I think this something is my gut feeling, or perhaps parts of my programming that I decided to keep but I have to discard eventually because it won't benefit me in the long run. Like I said, I stumbled across some false teachings and when I realized that it was utter crap, I had to get rid of everything, I had learnt about it. From that day on, I was more cautious of the information I received, because you can never know for sure these days.
Friday 18 March 2016, 03:16:57
[deleted user] Augustine I support you in following your gut. You are right on with that, Its very useful to be cautious and skeptical with information especially with all the BS out there. I have felt very vulnerable at times with my Awakening experience. Ive come across information online etc. that just felt twisted and creepy. Maybe you reached a point of saturation with new information and you might need space to process. Or possibly your finding the answers are inside of you and you dont need to look outside for them ? In the Bible Jesus is quoted "The kingdom of Heaven lies within" I think he meant we will experience heaven on earth when we go within for the truth. Maybe that is why you had joy when you realized being true to yourself frees you of worry?
Friday 18 March 2016, 04:11:52
[deleted user] Feral thanks for the support and the enlightening quote. PEACE to you and Augustine
Friday 18 March 2016, 04:17:02
[deleted user] And peace to you T! I'll check out that verse you mentioned. Thanks for bringing it up.
Friday 18 March 2016, 10:34:10
Lorraine H My advice to you is to keep in mind when watching a video that, you can't believe everything you see. I see it like this, when watching a video that catches my attention," some might be true" and "some might not be true". In the kind of world we live in most of the time you get half truth. Try to discern the truth from the not so truth and put the peace's together. It's like a puzzle/the clue game. We need to learn how to solve by putting the clues together.
Saturday 19 March 2016, 11:30:24
[deleted user] Thanks for the advice Lorraine. We are living in a world where other people control what we learn, and when we do learn by ourselves, we are bombarded with a load of partial truths (I don't really like the term 'half truth', because it implies that a statement is half a truth and half a lie, which can be misleading). I remember my first time coming across the flat earth *cough* theory, and thought that it was interesting and all, but thankfully I managed to see that the evidence presented was unsubstantial and therefore null and void. It takes a lot of courage and determination to sift through the mess, but it's worth it once you come to a balanced conclusion.
Sunday 20 March 2016, 04:28:12
Lorraine H @Augustine Yes learning about things you never knew before can be a lot to handle and or confusing. As for the flat earth theory, it didn't take much evidence for me to see that the earth we live on is a flat plain, all it took was my senses. When I find myself feeling as if the information I'm retaining is too much, I take a break from it all, listen to music, and keep my self busy with everyday mother hood duties. Then I seem to keep coming back to learning. Everyday we learn something knew, it up to us how we perceive it, putting the pieces together while taking some out.